I’m baaaaacccckkkk! I truly want to get back to this blog on a more regular basis. Having two little ones, and husband who works erratic and demanding hours makes finding time for the things I enjoy rather rough. Also, for the sake of being 100% transparent and real, I gained some weight through 2016-2017 and it’s had me feeling terribly down on myself. Not to mention, I had a terrible struggle with severe anxiety over the past year, after what should have been a fatal car accident where both of my children were in the back seat. It’s been a rough time. But I’m back on track and working towards my goals, of getting healthy, in all areas.
Let’s rewind a bit. When my first son was about eighteen months old, I lost nearly one hundred pounds, ninety two, to be exact. All through calorie counting and running. Training for and running half marathons to be specific. I stayed healthy and fit through my entire second pregnancy. I even lost the twenty six pounds I gained while pregnant in just two weeks! I thought I was going to stay on track and get right back to my weight loss journey. But, life had other plans. My second son, he didn’t sleep through the night for a year. I nursed him, and he nursed every two hours for a year. Every once in a while he’d go a three hour stretch, but for the most part, he nursed every two hours. There are many sacrifices in motherhood (all worth it, of course) but my biggest sacrifice the last two years was definitely my physical health. I’m NOT using my children and life in general as an excuse, rather an explanation. Being so incredibly sleep deprived, I just ate what was readily available. I still cooked home cooked meals for my family every morning and every night. During the day, however, I was just grabbing what I could. The exhaustion also killed me in the running department. I took my little one for a walk every single day, weather permitting, we spend so much time outside. But it’s not the strenuous and sweat inducing fat burning sessions I so desperately need to shed the pounds. So, cut to this New Year. Yes, I’m a resolutioner this year, more on that in a future blog post. I’m back on track with healthy eating and sweating it out in the gym, consistently working my way back to my fitness goals. And, like I mentioned above, I really want to get back to blogging because I just enjoy it so much. The first step, is getting to a point where I don’t cringe when I see a photo of myself. I never want to lose my curves, I just want to be fit and healthy again. Like the girl in the photo below. She’s within reach now, who I visualize when I’m drenched in the gym, I’m clawing and sweating my way back to her.
This blog was such a fun outlet for me, it led to some great opportunities. I became a brand ambassador and was approached by a couple (small) modeling agencies for their Plus Size division. Though I was elated and completely floored at the prospect, I quickly learned that the “drop everything” and go lifestyle just wouldn’t work for my life as a mama of two. My husbands job is very demanding and inflexible as well. But, I miss the interaction with you all and I just love blogging. So I really can’t wait.
The second part of me getting back to me. I was recently talking with my husband about what makes me feel best, makes me feel the most confident, since I’ve been feeling anything but that lately. The one thing that undeniably and unequivocally makes me feel my absolute best is when I’m channeling the Duchess of Cambridge, formerly Kate Middleton. I’ve been a “RepliKate” fanatic since she first walked out in that gorgeous blue “Issa” dress, during her engagement announcement to Prince William. I discovered one of my most favorite blogs, “What Kate Wore” just after the engagement. Ever since that day, I’ve been inspired and enamored by Catherine’s lady like elegance, channeling her style and beauty every chance I get. When I first started this blog, I was constantly trying new looks, what’s on trend, what everyone else was talking about. But in that, I lost myself and what I love quite a bit. I’m getting back to myself. I’m getting back to blogging and talking about the things I truly love. I hope you’ll all join me for the ride.
Lots of love,
Kate ❤️
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